Is it January yet?

33 weeks 6 days

Yep, it's another complaining post.  But I wanted to post an update on how the pregnancy and baby preparation is going.

My nesting hormones are going into overdrive!  They're trying to convince me that I should be ready for the baby to come any day now even though I have another month and a half before my estimated due date (I emphasize ESTIMATED because it's more of a guess date).  Whenever I sleep deep enough for dreams, the hormones turn these dreams about mundane baby items or to-do lists into senseless nightmares.  I had a nightmare about a swarm of onesies that had shrunk for goodness sake!  Even when I'm senselessly tired, I feel compelled to do things.  I spent what was supposed to be a relaxing weekend stressing about getting all the baby clothes washed and sorted as well as freaking out that we hadn't put in the order for our cloth diapers yet.

I did get a lot done this weekend though.  Everything cloth that baby will touch, from his clothes and blankets to the covers on the secondhand swing and walker, have been washed in baby safe detergent.  I also used the gift cards we got from the wedding and baby showers to order cloth diapers so I have time to prep them for use.  Hubby even caught some of the nesting mood and cleaned the bathroom with the bleach spray I'm not allowed to use.

I did get upset when I thought I was done and discovered a massive giftbag of clothes I completely overlooked, and we don't have the space to put everything away nicely because we haven't gotten a dresser yet.  I haven't even started going through the bags of non-clothing baby items yet because we don't have the storage containers to put it all in.  There were some problems initially with the gift cards before I went on the card websites to register them with my name and address, but I thought for a while I would have to dip into our savings to cover the purchases and use the gift cards elsewhere.  There's still so much cleaning and organizing we need to do, and we haven't begun babyproofing the house.


Despite the feeling that there is still so much to do, there's some emotional part of me that is ready to have the baby now.  Perhaps it is the Christmas season.  Perhaps I just want to get it over with while I still have the resolve to fight for the kind of birth I want.  Perhaps I'm scared of how much more tired and achey I can possibly get before D day.  It's selfish of me to want to have him now because he could really use the last few weeks to mature and be ready for the world.  We do have enough ready that we would be able to take care of him if he were born today.  We may not have a crib, changing table, or cloth diapers yet.  But we have enough to make do.  Hopefully we won't have to.  As neat as it would be to have a Christmas baby, it's for the best that he wait until at least New Year's.